Having kids was something I kept for later, and I suspect this would have been the case for ever, should I have not gotten pregnant by surprise (yes, I know, no such thing…) when I turned 30 and has just been dating an old friend for a couple of weeks. Looking backwards, I know that we knew what we were doing, and that we were doing this this way because there was no other way to take this decision rationally. So I decided to let life decide. And life happened indeed….. I loved my former life a lot, and valued freedom over anything else. I love my life today a lot too (though I complain a lot, of course), and value love over anything else. Good luck with life.